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Okay, Okay. It’s been a while. The holiday hustle and bustle are coming to a head today. After working insane hours at the weekend cell phone gig, I managed to get all of my laundry done, house cleaned, clothes for home packed, presents wrapped, and documentation for work completed within the last 24 hours.
How? Easy.. lots of caffeine, and little sleep. I’m leaving this afternoon for home (Chicago). It has already been a long day, and I don’t leave for at least 4 hours. Anyhew.
I broke down last weekend and bought a PS2. Those of you aware of my budget struggle may be crying out “Why God, Why?” Because. Because I haven’t got a good excuse. I don’t have a social life, hence I have a PS2. And I’m heavily involved with the Mafia, thanks to a guy named Eight-Ball, and a fantasmagastic game - Grand Theft Auto 3. Fully immersive, graphically amazing, it’s the sole reason I went PS2 over XBox. (That and the load of games available for Playstation at reasonable costs.) Witness the PS2 Classics, and awesome game availability at your local used game reseller.
I bought a refurb, and it works great. With the 30 I saved I was able to buy a used memory card, EA Sports’ NBA Live 2002, and GTA 3. Okay, so I added a few twenties to make it all happen, but it’s great. Until you see the productivity level in your life slow down to that of a turtle.
Case in point: WhY I haven’t updated in a while. I’ve been too busy hanging with hookers, leaving them for dead, and making deals with the cops. So I say, screw productivity! I love my little Normal-American-Waste-Of-A-Life phase. Rather than turn away or deny it, I’m embracing it head on.
PostGet: My boss per the last post called me and apologized profusely for the voice mail, and blamed it on “A Lot Going On.” For those of you new to the world, ALGO is another way of saying PMS.
Who, when writing the dictionary, chose to lump another as one word? Doesn’t a nother make more sense?
So, I’m driving home to Chicago tonight, and am in the throes of debating the future of my cell phone job. Hence, I shall use this medium to announce the official “Cell Phone Gig Vote”. The rules are simple:
1. Mail me your name and hometown
2. Vote either Quit, or Keep On Going
3. Check back January 2nd for the tally.
That’s right. This weblog is getting interactive. Blame it on ‘American Idol’. Do you know that I NEVER saw a single minute of that show? And, believe it or not, I’m a Live, Functioning Human! ! (with a PS2 Addiction.)
The Great Move shall commence at the end of January. If any of you are in the Greater Cleveland Area during the last weekend of January, feel free to help. Free beer and pizza will be provided to all. I’m not sure where I’m moving to yet, but I should know by then.
On behalf of the staff and dismembers of Jimmy.Brainflush.Com, I would like to extend the warmest holiday wishes to you and your peeps. Keep reading, and I’ll keep posting. Rock On! -Jimmy

I created posts last night and this morning. Neither made it up to the web. Blame it on my pokey connection at home. Sorry about that. I got a call from the MCSE Boot Camp people today, and they offered to hook me up with financing. But no dice. I am wishing I could rise above this financial issue sooner than I will. Why do I always try to do more? Why can’t I just be satisfied with living in the now? Example: Yesterday, I stayed home. Wasn’t feeling well at all and nearly slept the damn day away. So this morning I have this huge guilt trip on my head for not getting jack accomplished. I obviously needed the rest, but alas, I get twitchy nervous.
So back to the MCSE thing. I’ve got all the transcenders and books, and hardware, but I haven’t been able to cut through the moments of doubt. Something, someone, send me a friggin’ sign, okay?
The party on Saturday, according to my co-workers, was ‘Much better than last year.’ Glad I didn’t RSVP due to the midnight closing of my store. I would have been an odd single out in the crowd anyways. I was happy to be avoiding the awkwardness of said idea, so working wasn’t a problem.
So I get this voicemail from my boss telling me I should have called her about not coming in on Sunday Saturday night before I went to bed. Since it was already Sunday, I don’t understand the difference. But I still feel terrible about it.
Aaaargh! It’s cold today. Perfect stay at home and do nothing weather. But alas, I’m at work. Got a lot done so far this morning, and hope to get as much done this afternoon. Year ends always depress me. It seems that the older I get, the more bitter I get about the holidays. My Fiber optic tree will go up tonight, maybe that 2 minute exercise will get me back in the holiday mood. Or maybe it’ll just depress me a bit more. Back to the grind. Til later.. Jimmy

I just got home. It’s 1:00 in the morning. The store didn’t close until midnight. So I’m glad I didn’t RSVP to the Christmas Party. I didn’t sell as much as I would have liked today. Called the Grocery Store about the Gig, but the GigChick was out today. I found out after being at the store for 2 hours that we’re supposed to get mystery shopped this weekend, so I panicked at the store and bought a pair of khakis for 20 bucks. Luckily, I had been stupid, and wore my dress shoes with my jeans. I guess there’s a higher power involved..
I had weird dreams last night about being back at my mom’s and in the dream mom and dad aren’t back together, but they both are at the house. Something about propaganda leaflets from the opposing forces landing in our back yard. But the weird thing is it was like a morphed version of our backyard, representing a mix of both the Windows XP default desktop, and the Teletubbies astroturfland. Dreams are weird.
I was over tired driving home tonight from the store, which is about an hour away. It’s south of the city, past Akron, I think, in a place called Tallmadge.
On my way home up 91 North, I drove through Stowe, and thought of Dave the Web Guru. I give Dave a lot of shit at work, but he’s honestly one of the best of the support team we have. I wonder what would happen if I led the support team. I think it would be equally stifling and rewarding, cancelling each other out to create a sort of equilibrium that would sustain my high and low episodes.
I think I’ve been crabbier lately at work, and less happy-go-lucky. While I’d be quick to blame my extra-curricular activities, I really don’t think it’s altogether fair to make everyone around me suffer. Maybe they don’t suffer, and this is all in my head. Someone asked what my salary was this week. That made me crabby for at least a day or two. It shouldn’t have. Where’s this anger/frustration coming from? Okay, I know I don’t have balance in my life right now, but who does?
The good news is I figured my finances tonight, and it looks like my goal of being debt-free by my birthday in April might actually happen. I’m gonna miss my roommate’s cat when we leave here. She’s laying next to me on my bed while I sit in a ninety degree indian style, gently petting my thigh as I type this. That’s a moment I want to bottle up for the future. Just that, and the quiet around me. It’s my quiet amidst all the not so quiet moments of my life. When I look back at 25 and the Apartment, and the Gigs, I want to reflect happily on moments like this, so pure and raw in their simplicity. The quiet dark night ride, where I’m sure the stars shone brightly above the clouds.
A lady who bought a phone from me today was celebrating her birthday. I gathered this from her driver’s license. I snuck away after activating her phone and bought her a cup cake, some candles for it, and a Tweety Bird balloon. I wrapped the TMobile box with the balloon, and set the cupcake atop a kleenex and paged her to the front service desk counter. There were a lot of people waiting at the service desk, so I sort of announced that it was her birthday, and asked them to help me serenade her to a round of Happy Birthday. She blushed and seemed so appreciative… So everyone waiting in line broke away from their hectic attitudes and “Why is this taking so long?” priorities for a short while to appreciate the specialty of today and the moment.
I was shaking after it was over. For a brief shining moment, I was someone I wanted to be.
So, all in all, it was a great day. Didn’t realize that til just now. I hope you all are having a good weekend, that everyone got home from where ever they were safely.
Good night,
Jimmy