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On this night, 3 years ago,
A conversation was had with a friend I know.
The words she imparted had been heard times before,
With this one last time, they’d be shared no more.

Because the despair that was mine and the fears that I felt,
Went off of my soul and did indeed melt
Into the blind intuition of God-trust
when in through Him all things must

Pass Onward and upward to the heavens.

If you’ve been to a meeting or spoken with friends,
The journey they’ll speak of never really ends.
Each day is a new one unlike the one before,
with so much to do, so very much more.

Making up lost time is the debt we all share,
those in the shadows and those out here
in the light of clean and clarity of time passing through,
You don’t know where you’ll end up but now it’s coming to

When you realize the gifts and abundance that have arrived in such a short, short time.

And with humility and justness and ambitions running strong,
You work harder than ever, no day can be too long.
For if you are to go farther and grab a bigger piece of the cup,
You must always be restless, look nowhere but up.

Taking this brief moment to reflect on it all,
The really big changes, and the ones that seem small,
I realize this one thing this change that I’ve made,
Lead to the others which tint my life a brighter shade.

-End of Poem.

I took my last drink 3 years ago today. Who I am today, and the things I’ve done in the last 3 years are so outside of where I thought my life could be that I can’t even describe it.

I thank God for His grace in getting me and keeping me here…. for putting the people and events in my life to create such a reality.

Things could have been so different. So much so that if I stray from my faith, it will keep me up at night.

I remember the last moment, which is odd. It was in my East Cleveland place and it was a bottle of Riunite, and I finished it before I hung up the phone, and it was in one of my clear short glasses.

Thanks for everything world, fair reader, and G man. Thanks Renee for being there at that moment, for being present and being a friend. You downplay the significance of our conversation, but I hold you responsible for a large part of that moment, and am forever in your debt for that.

I’ve got work to do, so fair reader, say a prayer for those who haven’t come to such conclusions, those in my family and yours.

It’s funny, one of my aunt’s asked me, “How’d you do it?”
I replied to her matter of factly that you need to sort of lose everything. In that moment I was very convinced of that.

Blah. or, blog. G’night.